I’m at a Fed-Ex where you can stay up all night if you want using their free internet.  I always make some copies or something too, so I’m not TOTALLY mooching.

Anyway, I was sitting here reading and this Indian(?), Mexican(?) woman came in and sat at the cube next to me.  These cubes are supposed to be for people using laptops but she doesn’t have one.  Before she sat down she taped a paper towel onto the seat where her rear end goes.  Then she wrote a letter to God.  I didn’t read the whole letter of course, just the top line.  She sat writing for a while then she put a small tablecloth(?) over her head and put her head on her folder arms and i think…starting crying…or maybe sleeping…or both.

This is in an affluent area of California.  What is happening?  I was in a grocery store today and a man was in there with NO SHOES.  What happened to no shoes, no shirt, no service.

I feel like I am living in another country.  I may live in a van but I always try to look nice and behave decently.  I’m even going to get a new van soon, God willing.  What is to be done about all this degeneracy?  I know it’s only going to get worse.  I don’t want to live in the world that is coming.

On another note, I was walking someone’s dog today and I tripped on some wood in the yard.  I fell forward and scratched myself up!  I’m so grateful I didn’t sprain my ankle or something.  If that happens I’m in big trouble!  Maybe I will end up like these people I don’t respect.

It’s almost 11 pm and I notice a couple of people’s faces from the soup kitchen.  They must be homeless (sleeping rough, with no vehicle) and this is where they hang out for a while.  It appears that you can even get away with sleeping here.  That’s kind of unusual.  I have seen people getting woken up at other establishments.  It’s probably not a good thing for society, yet I’m going to store this information at the back of my mind just in case I need it some day.  (God forbid).  It must be horrible having no where dependable to sleep.

I am a feeling a combination of sadness and MUST GET AWAY.  Goodnight everyone.  


About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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5 Responses to Weirdnesses

  1. Susan says:

    Hi Maureen – did you ever get food stamps? America is turning into a shit hole, especially So. Calif. I read your entire blog in one evening and found your journey fascinating. I hope you are okay tonight – stay safe!

    • Maureen says:

      Thanks Susan. That makes me feel good that you read my whole blog! I had foodstamps briefly with my boyfriend. They gave us 80 ish dollars a month for the two of us!!! Not very much huh? Part of the reason for that is I didn’t admit to van living. After my boyfriend and I split up, I let the food stamps go.

      Eventually, perhaps I will go for it again and this time I will be more truthful about my living conditions so that they will give me enough to make it worthwhile for me.

      Thanks for asking. I hope you will sign up to be informed by email whenever I post. The place to do this is on the right side of the webpage.

      Thanks again for reading!!!

  2. diozen says:

    It’s a mad Twilight Zonish world we live in.

  3. Ryu says:

    The street has a thousand eyes. If a place tolerates the homeless, they will come. Then it’ll get burned out like that community thing you had a few months back. Maybe FedEx will be good for another month or two.

    This is the future. Actually it’s the present in most of the world – the rich, the intellectual classes, the poor. No middle class. There’s always some good with the bad. Many of the middle classes who used to be SWPLs or yuppies will become poor.

    But it does mean that you’ll have to keep looking for more wealthy work for. Most will not stay where they are right now; in 10 years alot of them will move into the middle or poor classes.

    Nice pictures, Maureen. You are adding them to posts now.

  4. Mama Jenn says:

    Even with a car to sleep in, it’s not always promised that you’ll be out of the public eye. Due to some unfortunate and unforseen circumstances, my family(three kids plus myself) were sleeping in our car for almost two weeks. I tried very hard not to make it “look” that way, but twice we were referred to police, despite being clean,dressed, and fed.
    I would say, sometimes in extreme circumstances, maybe decency flies out the window. Maybe the guy had shoes and they were stolen. Maybe the lady had some unknown mental health issues. While I have seen some things that made me question the morals of society in those two weeks, at the same time, I think we need to just keep in mind, everyone has their own story. Does that make what they did any more/less acceptable? No, but I guess just as long I(or you, or whoever) are doing what we can to make sure we are not in that position, and we’re doing what we can to those around us to help out, then that’s all we can do.

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