Tick, tick, tick

In less than 3 weeks, I’ll be living in my van again.

I’m not really looking forward to it this time.  I really liked staying with T and J.

I spoke with my friend about making me a wood platform for the back of my van to put a mattress on.  He says he will do it.  I just need to take the measurements of my van and send them to him.  He lives an hour away.

I hope my van holds out a while longer.  It’s in bad shape.  The good news is, I am going to have a bit more income soon, perhaps enough to keep the van going.

I have some longer term plans to move up north to live with friends.  I’m not exactly sure how this will play out.  I still need my van to work though, regardless!

If everything falls apart, I have some backup plans but they aren’t ideal.  I’m sorry I’m not giving more detail because everything is so painful right now!

I don’t know what it will be like, being in the van again.  Will I start feeling like a weirdo again?  Staying in the van makes me feel weird.  Like not part of society.  I don’t want to be TOO much  a part of this society but I don’t like feeling like a leper either.

Will staying in my van make me feel lonely again?  I didn’t realize how lonely I had been feeling until I stayed with T and J and experienced their friendship and even love.

I’m kind of confused right now.  Hopefully I can sort out what I want eventually.

About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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3 Responses to Tick, tick, tick

  1. B says:

    At least you be having better weather than you would have last month! I hope that’ll make it more pleasant for you.

    • Maureen says:

      Yes B…T and J kept me going during the coldest months.

      Ryu…I think women need more companionship than men do. I like a good bit of alone time but then I need to be with people that I care about again. Being in a coffee house with strangers helps a bit but it’s not the same as being with family or good friends.

  2. Ryu says:

    Probably you will feel alienated from others back in the van. This is a big thing with free sleepers. But some people are more suited for this than others. Road Dog or Two Dog was like that.

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