Onward and Upward!

I feel a little weird wanting to be in a “real” home again.

A house or apartment will not make me happy, nor does it, in of itself make anyone happy.

So why am I trying to get housed again?

Off the top of my head, I guess it’s because I have met the challenge of homelessness without falling apart.  I know that at any given time, I could live in my vehicle again if I had to and not die, go crazy or use drugs.  Most people just get sad THINKING about the word homeless.

Now I am ready to try to get OUT of van dwelling which will be much more challenging than getting into it was.  It is the mental challenge that is the most difficult.  I have to be open to idea, not always deflecting them immediately.  I need to think about things before rejecting them.

My boss/client and I discussed my fears of being employed again a few weeks ago.  I told her I had felt taken advantage of in the past and I never wanted to feel that way again.  She understood.

And frankly, right now she needs (cheap) help.  She can’t afford to hire pros right away.  So it may take me longer to do things sometimes…because I have to figure them out, but she doesn’t have to pay me fifty dollars an hour either.  I’m pretty resourceful and I think she will be amazed at the solutions I come up with to common problems.

Living poor or even in a van can help one evolve, if one tries to develop ones thinking skills rather than numbing out in front of the tv, computer or whatever.  I’m so glad I didn’t sit in the park doing drugs when I went homeless.  I like life.  It’s a struggle but it is boring without the struggle.  Think of Europeans like the Swiss who spent so much time indoors during Switzerland’s long, long winters.  Years of tinkering and they are famous today  for their clocks and other great inventions.  Hardship makes us better people.

Swiss imagery
Miradortigre / Foter / CC BY-NC

About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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