More Thoughts on Free-Sleepers

Most free-sleepers do not look like the usual “homeless” people you meet on the street.  Many have jobs, cars, intact families and so on.  They just can’t quite afford rent OR they prefer to use the money they would have spent on rent on other things like travel, better food, hobbies etc.

One guy I know of can’t afford a place to live because he has a pension but much of it goes to child support.  He has ten years to go before he can live on his money.  I’m not sure but perhaps he doesn’t get another job because he is older or maybe because if he did he would have to pay child support out of that too.  As far as I know, he doesn’t use drugs or alcohol.  Doesn’t even smoke cigarettes.  Just hangs out.  He has enough money for food so he doesn’t use the free services like I have had to do lately.

Using the services (and businesses nearby) is where you meet the obvious homeless.  Yesterday I went to use the bathroom and a woman was squeezing out an article of clothing into the toilet.  Obviously she was trying to wash something.  I hope she got the water for washing from the sink rather than the toilet!  I know a little about this lady.  She’s probably in her thirties and rather pretty.  She didn’t use drugs when I first met her but now she does.  She lost a lot of weight.  Strange that, in that sense she looks better than before BUT she has dark circles under her eyes and she yells and stuff.  It’s awful.  My heart breaks for her and women like her.  I act scornful of druggies sometimes because I am so angry about it but really I fear drugs and what they do to people and sometimes I fear that they well get me.

It is important for me, especially now, when I am forced to use the services again like the soup kitchen and church dinners to maintain the proper frame of mind.  Sometimes when you are with the “obvious” group, you begin to feel like one of them (I’m sure some of them are okay too but I don’t know which are druggy/crazy and which are normal)

So when I’m in these situations I am trying to remind myself that I am just there for some food and then I am leaving.  I have started calling myself an entrepreneur in my mind because that is what I am.  I even made money from blogging yesterday!  And even if I fail as an entrepreneur, then I am just a failed entrepreneur, not a crazy person and not a substance abuser.  Or I might be an entrepreneur who has gone back to the drawing board to look for a new way of making money out of air.    🙂

Due to no fault of my own, I have lost a client and I may lose another soon.  (hopenot, hopenot, hopenot)  Maybe this is God’s way of pushing me in another direction.  Who knows!



About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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3 Responses to More Thoughts on Free-Sleepers

  1. geezer says:

    One definition of a entrepreneur , is a state of mind , of attitude ,as long as you have those , then you’re a entrepreneur.The lack of business doesn’t change that, it just makes one look around for other opportunities . Perhaps you need a period of retrenchment , would staying with mom for a period be out of line ?
    ( apologies , I don’t mean to be offensive )

  2. Ryu says:

    We tend to become like the people we hang out with. It’s like a law of nature. You’ve just to keep a part of yourself different than the junkies.

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