I think I have always had a “bad attitude” about this church I can go to in the morning for food and coffee but THIS morning, I woke up with a good attitude about it.  The reason is, I got to thinking about it and I realized I like the people at the church better than I like the people at the gym.  I can go there before 7 am and do a lot of basics like peeing, washing my face, brushing my hair and teeth, having coffee, eating, without any snooty people looking down on me.

I think part of the reason I woke up with a better attitude is this:  the other nite it finally happened.  I had one of those middle of the night emergencies where I needed to find a bathroom fast.  I went to a gas station that I often go to when I need to use the restroom in the morning.  I ALWAYS buy something when I use their restroom even though I probably could get away with not doing so.  Others do.  The workers there are always very cordial with me, even if they suspect I sleep in my van.  Anyway, this night…because it was at a time I usually don’t come in there were different people working.  I used the bathroom first (emergency remember?) then went to look for a drink to buy.  While I was looking this ugly guy who barely spoke English asked me if I had come to the gas station in a car!  It was his way of ascertaining if I was homeless.  I probably didn’t look good because it was the middle of the night and I was sick.  I was pretty mortified that the guy was profiling me.  It really was none of his business how I got to the gas station.  (I drove the van, of course)  Then the guy up at the front started asking me questions too.  I told him I was coming from work.  You have to lie sometimes.

Anyway, I just appreciate a place where I can show up and just be who I am, warts and all, as they say.  Then I tidy up and hopefully look “normal”  for the rest of the world.

About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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7 Responses to Grateful

  1. geezer says:

    He may have asked out of company policy , ( night time policies will be different ).

  2. lucy says:

    ‘ Emergency at night ” ??? you may want to check Bob Wells blog for suggestions on how to handle said situations & then some.

    My regards, Lucy.

  3. Patti says:

    Being grateful is an important part of being happy. I am glad you discovered something to be grateful for today.
    My husband struggles with that regularly and it can take a real toll on your mind and soul.
    It is a shame that there are not more options for this situation at night. I get very frustrated, because the park near my home has very nice bathrooms but they are always locked in the evening when I stroll by.
    If people can’t use them to “go” why are they there?

    • Me says:

      It seems public things are only for day people. On the other hand the sad truth is there is always someone who will ruin things for everyone by being dirty or stealing the toilet paper or some such.

  4. lucy says:

    Here U have it, just click on it please & U’ll have the instructions for ‘ emergency poopies ‘


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