Some people think I’m very brave to be able to live in my van.  The real truth though is I’m afraid of a lot of things.  Here’s a list.  It’s certainly not a comprehensive list but you’ll get the idea.  Maybe some of you will relate to this list.

Fear of what people are thinking about me.  I’m afraid I’m not attractive enough.  I’m afraid I look homeless and/or poor.

Fear of cops and the government in general.  They and it have a lot of power.  If they choose to, they can catch me doing something wrong and make me pay a lot of money.  They can impound my van, for instance.

Fear of not having enough money.  My business isn’t doing so great.  I actually don’t have enough money to meet all my obligations although my head IS currently above water.

Living in the van actually addresses some of these fears while exacerbating them at the same time (if I let them).

For instance, I probably won’t have to work a “real job” if I live in my van.  This way I can avoid office politics and all that other BS that people bring to most jobs.  On the other hand, I have to shower in a public place, the gym, where there are a lot of intimidating (to me) yuppy types.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’m not as brave as I may seem, I’m actually living the way I do partially out of fear.  I can see I won’t get a pass though.  I’m still  going to have to face my fears if I want to  grow and be happy!

About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

13 Responses to Fears

  1. Pingback: Living in a VAN down by the RIVER! - Self-reliance, homesteading, survivalism, sustainable agriculture, renewable energy, permaculture, possible collapse, disaster scenarios, shelter, stock piling food - Page 32 - City-Data Forum

  2. B says:

    You might consider work-camping, or being a volunteer host (20-ish hours’/week work in exchange for a site with full hookup): http://www.happyvagabonds.com/Rving%20Guide/Workamper-Work-Camper.htm

    • eyewrist says:

      Great ideas! Also you may want to split a campsite with one or two others you can trust which you would save even more $$. And at the end of a day/week sit outside on your makeshift “patio” a socialize with each other. Sounds good to me.

  3. Maureen says:

    Yay! B is here! Thanks for commenting again B. I’m not sure I would want to take a job that didn’t pay me some cash…I would like to make around $1,000 a month. I just need to get used to things I guess.

  4. B says:


    ” … I just need to get used to things … ” That’s such a two-edged sword! When is it most useful to ‘get used to’ and when is it more useful to work to change things … That’s such a personal choice that people need to make, whether they know it or not.

    I hear ya’ about the cash. The “best things in live are free”, but only after you pay your bills. :-/ The volunteer jobs pay in utilities rather than cash.

    But other jobs at the workamper site offer cash payment … I think. I haven’t really looked closely at it yet because we’re not yet there in our lives. I’m scared/hopeful 😀 to get to the place where we can do that sort of stuff …

  5. Maureen says:

    🙂 I want to get used to living in my van. I really am having a blast, going places and making/renewing/growing friendships. I couldn’t afford to go anywhere if I had to pay rent somewhere.

  6. Maureen says:

    Oh yes…and thank you for that link. I would love to work at a campsite sometime….at the moment I think I’m rather tethered to my suburb because of my business but maybe in the future.

  7. Mooch says:

    Don’t forget to consider bartering for food, transportation, employment etc. 🙂

    • Maureen says:

      Mooch can you share more with us on how to do this? I love idea but just don’t know how to go about it.

    • eyewrist says:

      Yes, those days are returning. It like trading something or services for another. Some people you can accumulate “bartering points” for more expensive services (e.g a dentist).

      Everybody adult has some type of skill but they don’t realize they have them.

  8. eyewrist says:

    I was just thinking ……. ( I LOVE to think)…….. if a house has been foreclosed on by a bank. Do you think you can ask them can you live in the driveway or garage. They will ask you why but you can tell them you would provide as sense of it being occupied by the van being parked there. This in turn would maintain the resale value… Heck ask can you maintain the exterior for any homes they foreclosed on in the area for a wage a mowing service would charge. Pick up trash, trim bushes, mow lawn but let them purchase them and you keep it the the garage of your home base …get the hand tools only; no gas or electric so no one steals or wants them and no extra expense for you.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *