I have been putting off getting my van fixed for a long time. I’ve got to get my CV joints fixed (replaced I guess) TODAY because the van is starting to pull to one side when I’m driving and that is SUPER scary. I don’t want to kill someone.
It’s going to cost $350 which I have. I’ve had extra money for a while that my mom sent me for at least a month but I’m afraid to spend it.
I live in constant paralyzing fear. I try to ignore it and call it other things but it’s still there. For example, every job I’ve worked at, I’ve given 110%. I’ve worked countless upaid hours because I was afraid of losing my job. If anything, my stress level, because of trying to do everything perfectly probably made me very difficult to work with and I probably came close to being fired for THAT.
I’m so tired of being afraid. I claim to be a Christian so where is my faith?