Failure Part 2

I have been thinking about failure and mistakes lately.

I have always been afraid of making mistakes.  In fact I try to hide them from everyone including myself.

I think I have lived in a van for almost 4 years now as a way to insulate myself from mistakes and failure.  I’m a bit of a coward!

I’m super tired of living small in order to avoid facing my fears.  Sure it’s great not having a real job but not having a bathroom or a kitchen where I can make and store healthy food (less expensively) wears thin too.

I realize I MUST get used to failure.  We all know the tired old story about Thomas Edison failing thousand of times before he invented the lightbulb.  What passion he had!  To fail that many times.

So I had this failure recently because I jumped in with both feet into a new venture.  OH WELL.  I will just keep trying.  In fact, just for fun, I may change this whole blog or start a whole new blog but use my new skills to make it look kind of fancy.

I don’t have a lot to lose, as the stats for this blog are dropping like a rock (and I have no idea why!).

In the meantime, I have my eye on this for the van.   I have about 8 blankets now and they are ok but need to be washed a lot and it’s kind of expensive.  I was thinking I could buy this mattress and put a waterproof cover on it and keep it forever, even when I get housed someday.  It would save me at least $20 a month (conservatively) in laundrymat costs so it would take less than five months to pay for itself right?  And I’ll bet it’s worlds more comfortable.

Yeah simplifying my life has been great but I can carry it too far.  What’s wrong with being a teensy bit comfortable?

About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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3 Responses to Failure Part 2

  1. Anonymous says:

    a) What is the BIG DEAL about making mistakes ? we ALL do , is part of been alive, but as long as we learn from them we are OK & will be OK ( hopefully ).
    b) I can understand the DEAL of dumping the blankets & buying a mattress, as long as I having aware of ‘ the facts of life ‘ LOL… the mattress goes on the bottom to support our bodies while the blankets go on top to keep us warm..WHAT’S WORNG WITH U GIRL ??? LOL.
    My regards, huggies, Lucy.

    U’r COOL as far as I can tell.

  2. Anonymous says:

    I have read your text @ second time and OOOOPPPPSSSSSSS, i realize I miss interpreted it, NOW i see it !!! You use the blankets as padding instead of a mattress… That Dearfoam mattress looks good, it looks comfy & the price is right I bought myself a cheapy one 15 days ago it cost me $168.

    My regards, Lucy.

  3. Russell says:

    Hi there!

    I have just discovered you, by way of an interview video you did on youtube, and have been enjoying reading your blog tonight. While I can’t help with the housing situation, I can help with the website issue:

    Starting in April, google started severly punishing sites that are not “mobile friendly.”

    Basically, if your site can’t transform itself automagically into someting that looks good on a tiny 3-6 inch screen, then they will stop showing your stuff when people search from mobile devices.

    I know, because my site was hit badly also. 🙁 The good news for you, is that because you use wordpress, all you have to do is choose a “responsive” mobile friendly theme for your blog and you are good to go. There are many thousands of these, both free and paid.

    I wasn’t so lucky as my site was constructed from scratch so it is being moved to new software which is taking months to transition everything. Fortunately, once you fine a theme you like, your transition will take minutes to install. 🙂

    I wish you only the best. No matter what you do, never take this down. The content you have created should earn you ad revenue for years to come, not to mention being insanely helpful to anyone considering van life.

    Take care!

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