Down Day



Today my mind was playing tricks on me.  It was telling me that I can’t be successful…that I just don’t have what it takes.

On days like these…I just kind of get through the day and don’t do anything extra.

I am doing this promotional thing Friday that could be a winner but I am not getting my fliers out because I feel physically tired and I feel like I am too fat and weird looking so no one will want to come to my thing.  Ugh.

I just have to take it slow.  I’m going to do this promotional thing every Friday.  The first one…or the first few might look like flops (meaning only a couple people will show up) BUT it’s something that can grow.  At least I think it can.  When I first started up this business it was slow for a long time.  I even did free work just to stay busy and involved.  Now I’m almost making a living at it.  🙂

I just have to do what I can.  Obviously, the faster I can get flyers etc. out the faster things will go…but if I can’t go fast…I just can’t.

Ryu thinks maybe I need to build challenges into my free-sleeping but honestly, getting past my issues and getting to the next level in business (actually being able to afford a normal lifestyle) is quite enough challenge for me. 

I am reading two or three books right now to inspire me.  I’m reading “Think and Grow Rich” a classic by Napolean Hill and another more modern one-its name escapes me right now.  And something else.  Ha!  What a spaz.

I don’t know if these books will be just entertainment for me or if I will actually “get it” and persist with the things I know I need to do.  Most people just give up when things don’t go right immediately in business.  I hope I won’t do that.  I don’t want to be stuck in a rut. 

Believe it or not, much of my life has been spent trying to improve myself in various ways.  I have a real blind spot when it comes to business though.

In the past, I have let competitors intimidate me…also, I’ve been over emotional about big picture industry issues rather than putting my nose to the grindstone and making money.  My personality type just doesn’t do good with the modern business model where one is no longer a person but a human resource.  Ugh. 

So this is the challenge I am working on right now.  I even have crazy big dreams about creating a product that will make me millions one day.  I’ve always been a dreamer but hey, millions happen sometimes.

Thanks so much for all the comments lately.  It lets me know you’re still reading. 


About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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2 Responses to Down Day

  1. B (real name!) says:

    When it comes to self-help books, I generally find one good idea that makes positive change for me in every ten books. The rest aren’t a waste of time, because they reinforce other stuff I’m already doing “right”.

    • Me says:

      Indeed. Reinforcement is very important isn’t it.

      I could listen to Brian Tracy forever I think. He just talks about basics though actually.

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