I spent sometime with a homeless woman (she’s not homeless by choice) last night.

I’m afraid she’s going insane.

There are a lot of people around who are bat-shit insane.  She went on and on about people stalking her.  I know from experience it can happen but her stories were outlandish.  She talked of people putting a gps devise on her car so they could follow her???

I pumped her for information on homeless issues in the neighborhood, gave her something to eat and sent her on her way.

I remember right around the time I decided to start free-sleeping in my van, a man who works with homeless people said most women who go homeless, start going insane in about 48 hours, mostly out of fear.  I’m not sure if they are talking about vehicle sleepers or those that are sleeping rough (in the bushes etc.).  I suspect it is those without a roof over their head that are at greatest risk.  I can see though that we have a lot of sick people in society and if you throw a little homelessness into the mix, it can put the person over the edge.

If this economy implodes like a lot of people think it will…things are going to get ugly.  People (homeless and otherwise) may have to go cold turkey off their anti-anxiety meds.  That won’t be good.  Then again, maybe some people will find out how strong and sane they really are.

Some days I wonder if I’m insane.  But WHO decides what insanity is anyway?  Someone who wants a very well-behaved population, one that will smile and laugh as they’re about to fall off a cliff?

The kind of sanity I want in my life is where I won’t obsess on anything.  Where I will have a balance of work, play and time with God.  It’s one where I don’t feel the need to chatter endlessly (a symptom of mental illness if I ever saw one!)   Where I will feel good about the choices I am making and not feel the need to prove myself to anyone.  Where I will be kind to my neighbor but only other sane people will be allowed into my inner-circle.  Where I will not drop out of life but live it joyously.  Where I will also prepare for the future.

What does sanity mean to you?



About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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2 Responses to Crazies

  1. Ryu says:

    I don’t know what sanity means today. A person who really knows what is going on in the US would have a great deal to be paranoid about. The FBI and even regular PDs nowadays do use GPS devices under people’s cars.

    In fact, I just read about a jazzy term for driving people crazy by harassing them in such a manner – gangstalking. Some guy said that he went half-mad during it. In Community, No-Touch Torture (ICNTT). I looked at the site and didn’t know what to make of it.

  2. Maureen says:

    I’ll check out this ICNTT Ryu. Thanks.

    If she is being stalked, I believe, from what she told me that she invited it into her life.

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