Eventually, I will learn the lesson. You just can’t drive yourself past what you’re able to do.
I am still having trouble getting things done. There just don’t seem to be enough hours in the day to do the regular stuff people do like eat, shower, work regular job etc. AND do the stuff to move me forward.
I suppose I COULD do what I did when I first started my van experiment and start a new busines from NOTHING and just…make it work.
There’s a thought. I could give up my storage and everything in it….my phone….my po box….etc. so that I don’t have to work at the day job anymore. I could eat with foodstamps and soup kitchen again. Ugh. I would still need insurance, gas etc. for my van though. It is worth thinking about this now that I am learning ways to make money online (not sure if I told you guys about this yet or not. More later). I can use the library computers for free. And start over.
It’s fun to think about.
I probably won’t do it though. I’ve invested a good bit of time and energy into my little business. I am not willing to give it up just yet.
But I might in the future if it keeps taking so much out of me. It’s a physical job but as the gurus like to say…it’s not scalable. This means, because the entire job is “all me” and my labor, there’s only so much money I can make at it. There are only so many hours in the day and only so much time.
For now, the plan is to do a little bit everyday, even if it is next to nothing. All those little “next to nothings” might add up to something eventually right? And I suspect, if I start seeing some money come my way, I will feel more energetic right?
I feel energetic when I blog, just for fun. I wish I could feel this energetic when I am working! 🙂