One of my clients is very interesting.  Although she has a regular job of sorts, she is always trying to find ways to make extra money.  She owns coin operated snack machines, for instance.  Lately she has been looking to buy a high end metal detector to sweep the beaches with, looking for lost jewelry and things.

She said something today that bothered me though.  She wants me to buy one of these metal detectors too and join her club with other people that are into this hobby.  I told her I can’t afford one of those machines.  (and it’s really not something I’m very interested in doing, frankly).  She then started saying I should be more concerned about money.  She was saying that I should be more ambitious.  What she doesn’t know is that I am actually researching a niche I might get into.  Anyway, I said, I’m not that worried about money and she said, “that’s why your life is like it is”.  I don’t even think she knows I’m living in my van.  She may suspect it but either way, what she doesn’t realize is, although my life isn’t perfect, I like it just fine.  (and I haven’t complained to her about my life either!)

I will never forget the burden of working 40-60 hours a week in a high stress office.  I’m very conscientious so I would work many hours unpaid, to make sure I got everything done.  I never felt like I was doing enough.  The pay wasn’t great either.  You need to make a lot to even live in a decent neighborhood in Southern California.  It was worth it when my kids were young.  I’m glad I could give them a home but now it’s just me and at the moment I see no reason to push myself that hard.

So I will go at my own pace finding ways to make money.  I will live in my van until it becomes unsafe or very inconvenient to do so.  Perhaps I will fail and die.  Or perhaps I will fail and crawl home to my mother (I REALLY don’t want to do that).  I just have to follow where my heart and spirit lead me.

I really can’t worry about what other people think.

PS.  I’m getting a pedicure as I write this.  I do it every 2-3 weeks.  It helps me feel pretty. Worth every penny!



About Maureen, Living in a Van

I'm a free-sleeper living in a van in the prettiest part of the world. I do this partly due to financial circumstances and partly because I love a good adventure.
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3 Responses to Mammon

  1. Tabbycat says:

    Some of the high end metal detectors are really shocking how sensitive and descerning they area about coins vs junk. Still looks rather consumerist overall and like a net cost and adventure rather then a biz. I just found out how stylish this is now. But cant really see how the numbers could work. There is some interesting youtube material

    • Maureen says:

      I agree about it being a hobby Tabby. I have to be very, very careful with my money and while I’m sure some of the early adopters of the metal detector hobby made some money, I don’t imagine many do now. Even if they do, I don’t see me personally putting in the time it would require to make a real go of it.

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