Stopped by Police

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAWas driving home from a job last night and was stopped by two female cops because they “couldn’t read the numbers on my license plate”.  HA! 

I didn’t know it but there are two little lite bulbs near my license plate and they are out.  I’ll bet they haven’t been on since I bought the van over three years ago.  They also said my license plate is too dark with age which is also causing them to be unable to read the numbers on my license plate.  Well whose fault is that?  As much money as we pay to register our cars every year (not to mention the cost of keeping our car from polluting so we can pass the once every two year smog test) and they can’t give us a new plate once in a while?

Anyway, I can’t see why they need to read my plate number anyway since I drive perfectly (almost) and don’t do anything illegal.

My guess is once again, they want to see if the driver of the ugly van has any warrants for my arrest.  So I have to stop what I’m doing so cops can bother me.  By the way, they get between $75-90k a year to harrass innocent, middle aged women in this neck of the woods.  Nice huh?

The worse thing about this is, I am not required by law to answer their stupid questions that are none of their business but if I don’t answer them they can apparently put me in jail and who has time for that?

 

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Good News for LA California Free-Sleepers

Since June of this year, vehicle free-sleepers (otherwise knows as homeless people that live in their cars, trucks or vans) are no longer breaking the law by sleeping.  WOW thanks for letting us breathe.  But seriously, even though you shouldn’t need permission to sleep in your personal property, you have it now, if you reside in Los Angeles.  I hope other counties follow suit.

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Resting

I’ve been house-sitting lately and I don’t have a good internet connection so I am forced to relax and watch movies for a while. I also have a couple of library books out that I could read. I suppose I should do that.

I’ve been playing the housing game again lately with an agency and I’m becoming more willing to look at various options.

The reason for this is because I have goals and I have a plan for reaching them but my day to day situation is making it difficult.

As always, there will be conditions. I’m not sure if I will be able or willing to abide by them. We will see. Maybe if it’s crazy enough I will give it a go and use it for fodder for a book.

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Balance

I’m doing better today.

As Ryu said a couple of days ago, the body seeks balance and I was out of balance.

It is ok to get motivated but emotions need to be kept in check or it’s like being on a roller-coaster.  The upswings is fantastic, the downhill is potentially tragic.

“Slow and steady wins the race” and “Rome was not built in a day” come to mind.

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Failure

Today, you all get to be my pyschologists.  I need to lie on the therapist couch (figuratively) and let you help me.  I’m sure it will help just writing things out.

I felt HORRIBLE all morning.  I didn’t drink any alcohol last night so I can’t blame it on that.  (Sometimes I feel depressed the morning after having drinks)  Maybe I don’t like weekends when things aren’t structured, I don’t know.  Anyway, I was grouchy all morning, in a panic because I got side-tracked yesterday and got very little writing done AND also, feeling overwhelmed by all the things I want to do today.  I have a hard time remembering all the stuff (and I have LISTS all over the place-yikes) I want to do and I also have a hard time prioritizing.  What should I do first. 

I need to figure this out or I will have to work for someone who will figure out my day for me.  THAT’s not what I want.  It’s not like I’m going to get a great, high paying job at this point. 

ALSO,   my confidence is ALREADY starting to flag.  Pathetic.  How long have I been on a roll?  A month or so?  And already I’m crapping out?  Not acceptable.  I had all these plans about how I was just going to DO IT, even if it’s risky and even if I make mistakes.  And this morning I felt scared.  I don’t want to make mistakes.  I don’t want to work really hard, then fail.  It’s easier to just not try isn’t it?  Then I can say, well I never wanted to be successful anyway.  (Yeah right, who doesn’t want to be successful in some way or other?)

Well, I guess I know the answer to all this.  Just do SOMETHING and it will probably (hopefully) spur me on to the next thing.  I need to ignore the fear.  It is natural but if I let it stop me I will be as cowardly as the drug addicts in the park lying under a tree.  I’ve already decided that THAT is not the life for me.  Too boring.  SO, if I want to have stimulating work, and I don’t want to work for others, this is my only course.  I really don’t have a choice.  So here goes!

 

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Energy!

I can’t remember which of the gurus (Brian Tracy maybe?) mentioned that once you start getting more discipline in your life, you will feel so good about yourself that you will be spurred on to do more and pretty soon you’ll be unstoppable.

That’s how I feel today.  Course it might be the extra soda I had these last two afternoons.  Hope it’s not that.

One thing is for sure.  I have cut way back on playing around on the internet.  I have done enough reading in books and on the net to last a lifetime.  It’s time for me to produce.  So I have been writing. 

I have to make sure I’m not just busy.  I have to make sure I am doing tasks that will help me realize my goals. 

Some of my goals have to do with career and money, others are more personal. 

It’s GREAT getting things done!  If these gurus can help keep me motivated enough to get things done, they are worth their weight in gold.

They hypnotise you and I WANT to be hypnotised to achieve more in my life.  I love it! (and I haven’t paid them a dime!)

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Staying Hungry

A commenter thinks my being “on the street” makes me more alert and less likely to sleepwalk through life.

I’m not sure if that is true or not.  I live in a pretty safe area so I don’t feel like I need to watch my back all the time.

There are situations where I do have to watch my back.  The other day when I was at my storage unit, a gangster/ghetto looking Black guy drove up in a car, playing loud rap music.  He kind of stuck out.  I’m sure someone will look down on my for this but frankly, I feel he had a look about him that spelled trouble and since there weren’t any other people around, I decided I didn’t want to be alone there with him…so I left the area.  Better safe than sorry.  Two days later I heard about an older White lady in another state being attacked and killed by a thug in at storage units.  I believe she worked there but that hardly matters.  I would rather hurt that guy’s feelings, let other people think I’m a “racist” etc. than become a statistic.

Anyway, what situations like that do is confirm to me that I want to insulate myself and my family, as much as possible from being in situations like that.  If I had plenty of money, I doubt I would even HAVE a storage unit.  I certainly wouldn’t be going to it everyday for an hour like I do now.

The only way to avoid the HUD housing crowd is to live in areas where they aren’t.  That motivates me to make lots of money.

O/T  Here’s what I’m listening to today.  http://www.stitcher.com/podcast/earwolf/the-cracked-podcast/episode/35142104?refid=eml&autoplay=true

I also love Tim Ferriss, Brian Tracy and Dan Kennedy Youtube videos.  I convert them into MP3s using listentoyoutube.com   Then I listen to them on my phone while working or driving.

 

 

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Working

I’ve been working a lot more lately…and it’s not work I’m being paid for, at least not yet. 

To give you an idea of what I’ve been working on lately, I worked on a salesy voice mail greeting for my cell phone, a mini-biography that tells how I got in the business I am in.  (will go on my website and in my newsletter)I started my website-that’s going to be a huge project as I am NOT practiced in this area anymore, even with templates and things that are supposed to make this easy.  Wrote another article for my newsletter (one more to go!) I worked on my contracts.  I need to read them over a couple more times so I can catch mistakes. 

I have to try to finish THESE projects before I start any more.  I tend to be a perfectionist and I don’t finish things because I’m afraid they won’t be good enough BUT I am trying to change this about myself.  I read this article today that, among other things, talks about letting yourself get a C grade in school so that you can spend most of your time on things that are more important to you.  It’s an interesting comment.  Since I don’t have an editor yet or any other partner that is qualified to help me with my writing, I just have to do the best I can and improve on things as I catch the errors, I guess.  In other words, instead of Ready, Aim, Fire it will be Ready, Fire, Aim!   Or something like that.  I will think of it as putting out the beta versions of my work, much like programmers do.  It won’t be a complete mess but it won’t be perfect.  Let’s see how I do.

Ok, a little rant next.  In the last few months I have asked 3 friends for help with something.  2 of the friends were asked for the same favor..so it was only two favors in total.

One of the three said yes BUT all three used my favor asking as an opening to give me advice on my “situation”.  One had the nerve to tell me about “low income housing”.  It really made me mad because I thought this woman knew me by now.  I’ve known her for over a year and we’ve had a lot of conversations.  Anybody who knows anything about me and my motives for free-sleeping KNOWS I would never go into a crappy situation like that. 

Oh and I might add, like most women I know, (and like most American women) all three of these women take meds for their anxiety or depression.  So where do they get off advising ME?  ANNOYING!

I am going to try not to let this get to me, as I won’t have any friends left if I can’t ignore these things.  They’d better stop it though!  ARgh!

Finally, I found a company that I can get a business address through.  It’s a little pricy for me but I need to do it.  I must have a physical address for my business, for the schmoes that run the local gubbermint so they can check it off their list.  Indeed, now that I am spending $XXX on a fake office, I am qualified to run a business.  OH KAAAAAAY!

But I’m glad I got THAT problem solved and it’s at a fancy schmancy office building so I will look like a big success! (until they see my van).

 

 

 

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Idea!

I really like writing this blog.  I don’t have to force myself to do it.  I like sharing my ideas and getting feedback.  Sometimes I even take the advise I am given.  :)

I have been thinking that a story of someone who drops out of society, lives like a bum for a couple of years, then goes on to have a very successful business might appeal to some people.  So I was thinking, after I make my millions, that I should become a motivational speaker.  If you are in demand you can make $6,10, 25k per speaking engagement.  Course, that will be chump change to me by then.  Hahaha!

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Money (again!)

Ryu made a comment:

Money is a strange thing. Have you ever considered it? One man cannot be 20x smarter, or 20x stronger than another man. He cannot live even twice as long as another. Yet, one man might have 100 billion, and another, nothing. It’s very weird. Unnatural even.

Yes it is strange and unnatural.  I’m pretty sure that the men who make 20x or more than the average guy are VERY focused on money.  They think about the acquisition of it most of the time. 

If I was like them, I would probably NOT be posting here but rather working on money making stuff for my business.  For me though, I am more comfortable writing here, I guess.  It doesn’t require much of me. 

One of the Youtube videos I have been listening to (I think it’s Brian Tracy but he is quoting someone else) says that if you don’t have the vision and self discipline to work at your goals, you are destined to work for a man that does.  AND (this is me talking right now) if you are the employee, your boss will force the discipline on you BUT HE or SHE will make the big money. 

So if you have to work 40-50 hours a week anyway, why not get yourself in the position to make great money?

One of the hardest things for me right now is that I am physically tired when I finish my day’s work and don’t feel like doing the writing I need to do.  Still, I don’t want to give up.  I’ve just got to do the best I can.

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